Monday, June 18, 2007

the end of the line

So friends, it has been some time. Hasn't it?
I start this post knowing that it will be the last: so here it goes.

To cut to the chase, I stopped blogging out of respect to a delicate situation. I have made a significant life change; Brev and I have separated. It didn't seem like something one should blog about. so. I. didn't.

But to be honest, there is no shortage of things that I haven't blogged directly about; my recent battles with depression, exhaustion, suicidal thoughts, multiple diagnosis, drugs, doctors, therapists, etc. I won't go into it all now, but I will say this: It has been quite a journey. For as much as I will honor that journey and its lessons, I am also glad to say that I am on my way.

In fact, I feel an eerie serenity about the way the universe is shaping my existence. The decision to leave really wasn't much of a decision at all: Doors opened, lighting crashed, burning bushes spoke, coincidences mounted and God said yes. I simply said yes too.

As a friend said; 'Sometimes the universe speaks. Sometimes it screams. '

In closing, I return to a picture that I posted a few months ago when I was in the throes.
A time when I couldn't separate a symptom from a cause.
A time when 'alone' seemed as much of a temperature as a symbol.
A time when I was positive I would never find my way out of Austin.

I now see this picture quite different: strong. independent. beautiful. the first sign of spring.


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Michael Shafer said...

Dana, just wanted to say great job again on your show.
Hopefully you can find some time to breathe and have some quality Dana time.
Be in touch.
OH, also-you offered a few months ago about throwing some of your floral expertise my way. I may have a job for you, if you would still be willing.
cheers,
~m

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